Monday, 16 January 2017

Today I am tired…I am weary.  Sometimes I feel like my life has been so much fuller of the miry clay than it has anything else good and beautiful.  Today, I am weary of it all!!.  When my heart would want answers yesterday.  When life would be so much easier if I just gave up.  He calls me forward.  When I would want to lay down in defeat, He calls me onward.  Today He speaks boldly to my heart to take courage.  He is not done yet!

My heart replies, “I trust you Father.” 

His encouragement was found in a song I had never heard until this morning.  Thank you Abba for the many ways you love me and love on me!  You are indeed beautiful and gracious!  I trust You!  (Make sure you go right to the end.)

Tuesday, 3 January 2017


This is a new favorite song.  I keep playing it over and over…letting it wash over me…letting it penetrate every place…saturating my soul.  Oh the riches we have in Christ.  They are unsearchable….I love that He invites us to search them out.  He unveils them as we pursue Him.  When we search for Him….He will be found.  He doesn’t hide so that He can’t be found but rather that we would pursue Him, intentionally.  Love is intentional…it is worth the effort…it requires effort…great effort…but the rewards are great…beyond what we could dare to imagine.  Everything is found in Him!  Hidden in Christ.  Search it out saints….search for Him and don’t ever stop.  There is so much that has been hidden in Christ.  It is us to rise to the invitation to search out the unimaginable riches in Christ.

Ephesians 3:8-12 New King James Version (NKJV)
Purpose of the Mystery
To me, who am less than the least of all the saints, this grace was given, that I should preach among the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ, and to make all see what is the fellowship[a] of the mystery, which from the beginning of the ages has been hidden in God who created all things through Jesus Christ;[b] 10 to the intent that now the manifold wisdom of God might be made known by the church to the principalities and powers in the heavenly places, 11 according to the eternal purpose which He accomplished in Christ Jesus our Lord, 12 in whom we have boldness and access with confidence through faith in Him.

Colossians 1:24-27

Thursday, 25 August 2016


This morning I was revisiting a revelation God gave me quite a few years ago.  At the time I was marveling at how responsive Jesus was with our Father.  I was struck by His commitment and heart to be so quick to obey to the Father.  I was meditating on the scripture verses found in John 5:19 & 12:49,50 about how Jesus only does what He sees the Father doing.  That He only speaks what the Father says.

I swiftly came face to face with the very ugly gaping lack in this department for myself.  I couldn’t honestly say, I was quick to obey?  In fact, on many occasions it became almost a wrestling match until I finally conceded and begrudgingly obeyed, knowing it was the right thing to do.  After all who can fight with God and win?

As I meditated on those scripture verses something began to take shape in my mind.  First, it started as admiring Jesus’s level of submission.  I mean, He became obedient to the point of death…death on the cross!?  Philippians 2:8  "And being found in the appearance as a man, He humbled  Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross."  I began to think…who does that?  Who is that committed to following someone’s directions, even to the point of death? 

As I pondered that, I recognized that there must be this huge level of trust that Jesus had in the Father?  Trust that could only develop out of quality time spent with the Father.  I could also see that He must have a great respect for the Father, in order to follow through.  Relationships like that are grounded in an incredible depth of mutual love that doesn’t happen overnight but ever grows and deepens!

Then suddenly the coin was flipped over.  The other side of this picture began to emerge.  In order for all that to take place, for Jesus to have that level of trust, the Father…our Father must be trustworthy.  He must be someone you can trust and count on.!  Not just in a simple everyday kind of casual way where you don’t have much invested in the outcome.  But a deep trust you can count on with your very life!!

That revelation began to seep into my heart as I rolled it over in my mind, letting it run down, filling up every place.  My Father, my heavenly Father is trustworthy!  In fact, He is the most trustworthy person there is.  There is no one more trustworthy than Him.  As that truth started to penetrate every place in me, it has become so much easier to obey.  Recognizing that He is trustworthy and knows best and has my best in mind.

Also, it gave me a key to understanding that most obedience flows out of this level of intimacy with the Father…not from an attitude or behavior of me trying to be good and obey.  The more love and intimacy grows between us as I spend time with Him, the easier it is for me to obey and the more I desire to obey. 

From that place, obedience becomes the fruit and evidence of how much I love Him. That fruit is not something I strain to produce by my good behavior but naturally and effortlessly flows out of sincere love, respect and an unshakable trust in His goodness!

John 14: 23  Jesus answered and said to him, "If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our home with him."  

So today, let us walk into our day, knowing that He is so trustworthy!  Let us abandon any cares or concerns, knowing He is a good Father, who has good plans for His children and let us be quick to obey!

Friday, 15 July 2016


I marvel once again that when I quiet myself before, my God, He speaks.  He speaks to my heart and I hear Him.  Jesus says, “My sheep hear my voice and they follow me.”  (John 10: 3, 4)  So I am listening and I am hearing and I am following.  He also tells us to seek Him and we will find Him.  I am seeking and indeed, I am finding, the One Who promises to be found. (Math 7:7,8)

I am walking through a season in my life where the waters are deep and threatening.  They feel like they can swallow me up at any time, but I know they can’t.  (Isaiah 43:2 “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.  When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.,”  vs16 “Thus says the Lord, who makes a way in the sea And a path through the mighty waters,”)

 Today the Lord is speaking to my heart that when things are hard when the enemy comes in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord raises up a standard against him.  (Isa 59:19)
This far he (the little itty bitty devil) may come, but NO further.  Just as God marked out the line where the seas meet the shore, they are not permitted to cross onto the land, so He possessively marks out that line in our lives.  There is a line that the devil is not allowed to cross and since God is Sovereign, He has the final say!

What God was speaking to my heart on this particular day, was the provision He has stored up for me during these hard times.  He is all knowing and this time in my life came as no surprise to Him.  So in the midst of this difficult time of pain and deep waters, He has refreshing, strength, and even joy.  In fact, the Word tells us that the Joy of the Lord is our strength.  It is for us!  It is part of our inheritance!

The focus or the awareness that He wanted me to have, was that He has a plan for this time and He has provision for this time.  He doesn’t just give you enough to survive or get through by the skin of your teeth but that there is a reservoir of deep abiding provision for this time and thatmust learn to drink deeply.

The devil can never do more than our God can do.  God is always greater, bigger more powerful.  In fact, it is no contest.  Just turn on a light and see.  The darkness has to flee!  It’s not a fight for the Light of the world! 

The devil is no competition for our God!  With that truth and awareness in mind, we should understand that when the devil brings something into our lives, God has something so much greater!  God has a way out…a way through in fact a much better plan in mind.  Plans to prosper you and not to harm you.  Plans to give you a hope and a future.  What the devil meant for harm, and to destroy you, God will turn for your good. 

In fact, we know all things work together for the good of those who love God, those whom He has called according to His purpose. (Rom 8:28)  What a promise!  What hope!   What confidence we can have in the midst of all the storms in our lives.

He reminded me that when sin abounds, grace abounds more.   When there was a drought in the land, He fed His prophet meat and bread by the mouth of a bird.  During that same drought, He fed a widow and her son with oil and flour that never ran out.  She could eat as much as she needed.  She could be filled and return again and again, without limit, for that season of drought.  (1 Kings 17:1-15)  

When thousands were hungry and needed to be fed, He used a handful of fish and few loaves of bread so that all ate and were filled and there were left-overs!  Baskets of left-overs!  Our God is lavish and gracious!  (Luke 9:10-17)

Beloved, if you are in a drought, the devil may want you looking at the barrenness in the landscape of your life but God says, look at the Rock, that has a spring of refreshing, strength and provision for you right now and for every tomorrow you have.  A well of water that when you drink deeply, will never run dry.  (Exod 17:5 & John 4:13,14)

No good thing does He withhold, there is a bounty of provision and substance for this season, this time, so let us drink deeply.  Drink and be filled.  Let us go to Him, seek Him, find Him, be strengthened in Him, be refreshed in Him, and take joy in Him. 

Let the precious river of life wash away every weight and burden, let His perfect love that casts out all fear, fill us to overflowing.   Let His light penetrate every dark place, as we go out in His strength and not our own.

He has prepared a banqueting table…

Let us eat and be filled!

I hope you enjoy this beautiful song that I found on the web.  To me, it so describes this incredible invitation the Lord extends to all of us, without exception or exclusion.  To come…drink…and be filled.  He is so good!  So lavish and generous.  There is no need for us to hunger or thirst anymore.

I’m wading in deeper…won’t you join me…

Saturday, 9 July 2016


These posts over the next little while  are an ongoing journal from my time spent with God.  They were inspired by a journey I began with my friend Ky, who committed to pray with me for 21 days. Each day she would call me in Kenya and we would share what God laid in our hearts and we would pray together.  To my astonishment, what I found was that everyday, without fail, when I made time for God, He made time for me.  I began to see that God was regularly speaking things to my heart..... every day!  I was surprise to see that He has so much to much to say to me!  I didn't want miss a thing...not one beat of His heart.  So hear is my record of time spent with Him.  (Math 7:7-8 John 10:3-5)

I had a nap late this afternoon, to rest and reboot.  After waking up, I was remembering a bit of a dream but more than that I just felt an encouragement in my heart.  Lately I have been hearing these whispering's from the Holy Spirit.

I call them a whisper because they are so fleeting that many times one could easily dismiss them away, unnoticed.  It is like it wafts by like a sweet momentary fragrance carried by a gentle wind.  The kind you might get passing someone carrying a box of freshly baked croissants.  Not the lingering kind you would get passing by a bakery, but rather a brief one that you would have to be present for, or you would miss it.

I’ve been growing keen in my spirit and when I catch a whiff of that sweet fragrance, I stop and pay attention.  I give Him my time, I still myself and concentrate on what He is saying.  Then I toss it over in my mind and meditate on it in my heart and hope begins to take flight.

I begin to worship Him and thank Him, and the idea begins to take shape and my heart is encouraged, my spirit is lifted and I know I am following Him.  I am following what is right and it brings life and goodness.  I walk away in strength, with a plan, with direction and His leading.  His peace rests on it and there is joy and I move forward in Him.

On one of those days, when He began to whisper in my ear, something beautiful began to take shape in my heart.  I was feeling particularly low that day.  By the time night had found me, I was on an out of control binge with food, trying to stuff the pain that was sneaking its way out of my heart.  Caught in sin…one could say.  I was turning to food and not to Him.

When all of a sudden He whispered.  What if God has a banquet, right where the enemy wants me to binge and eat?  I leaned in to listen….I was curious about what He could mean…He had my full attention as I stopped dead in my tracks of another mouth full of potato chips.

Another whisper, this time leaving an impression in my heart of this beautiful infilling of the presence of God.  A banquet so lavish…so deeply nourishing, wonderful, delightful, and fulfilling.  Filling up places that no man, with the kindest of words could reach.  

So tender and loving it melted my heart along with any possible care or concern.  So consuming and passionate it took my breath away, inviting me in for more…to be filled and overflowing, not lacking anywhere, hungry no more but longing for that deep meaningful affection that only He could satisfy.

Then a question arose…..  Would He really do that?  I laughed with a knowing, that it would be just like the kindness of God to take my current biggest weakness and turn it into a beautiful place of refreshing and strength. 

I lingered there….recognizing His presence and love.  I began to worship Him.  So delighted in the idea and the very truth of His heart.  That revelation of who He is!  He loves to visit our place of weakness with the love of Himself and turned what use to be a temptation or desert or broken place into an oasis of love, strength and beauty. 

What use to be my place of torment, my former place of shame becomes my holy visitation of His presence and love which then becomes my victory, my testimony of His love and faithfulness.  My breaking through because Christ always leads us in victory and the Holy Spirit always guides us into the fullness of truth.  (2 Corth 2:14, John 16:13)  The truth in Christ.

How remarkable is our God!

Now when the night hours come, I get excited about how my God is going to meet with me.

Tuesday, 20 January 2015


We had a recent encounter, that reminded us so clearly, Who watches over our lives.  The One who has power over every demonic influence and Who has promised that no weapon formed against us shall prosper.

This past Saturday, Silas was already quite exhausted, having ministered overnight in a funeral.  His day was filled with appointment after appointment.  At the end of a very long day, he still had to travel to Kisumu and back and then facilitate a leaders meeting with our pastors as we projected into 2015, preparing our hearts for what God has for CGC.

As he arrived, late at the meeting at 8 pm, he was pressed and headed straight to the latrine, guided by a small dull light that a boy was holding for him.  He couldn't see into the latrine but stepped in hurriedly.  He quickly heard an unusual tsssss sound and felt something cold and wet running down his hand.  As he lit his phone, it quickly revealed that he had unknowingly cornered a very large Black Mamba snake, who wasn't happy about sharing his new found space and had obviously spit venom on him.

Silas quickly exited the latrine, headed for the house, where we were all waiting to start the meeting and he began washing his hands repeatedly and thoroughly.  After hearing what had happened, we were completely dumbfounded!  A Black Mamba is an aggressive snake, that strikes quickly and very few ever survive such encounters.  The venom is highly toxic and a man is usually dead in less than 30 minutes.  The snake holds a fierce reputation as the worlds fastest and has been known to chase people aggressively, and can even travel backwards at high speeds! 

Once again we are reminded of how GREAT and how BIG our GOD is, Who watches over His beloved, even in sleep.  We prayed taking authority over serpent and scorpion and over all the power of the enemy, declaring, that nothing shall by any means harm us.  Then we continued with meeting with perfect peace in our hearts.

Later, well into the evening, an excitement begin to fill me.  I began pondering in my heart, the earlier events, knowing that the enemy only comes to steal, kill and destroy.  So I began to wonder what the devil came, to try and steal from us that night.  What was God about to do and release that the enemy wanted to steal and stop?  I was stirred with excitement about what Sunday’s service was going to be like.  I knew that God had bigger plans for us and that what the enemy would try and use to harm us, God would work for our good and for the saving of many!  I was stirred with anticipation, knowing that God is a giver of only good gifts and that He had something good in store for all of us!

There was such an anointing present as Silas preach powerfully.  Five new souls gave their hearts to Christ and I gave another altar call, sensing that God wanted to break the bondage's that people and even generations had been enslaved to for years.  I saw in the spirit, families and generations being set free from alcoholism, abuse, and trauma. 

I believe we will soon receive testimonies of people, who knew those in their family that were notorious longstanding alcoholics or addicts, suddenly delivered, never to drink or use again.  I am excited and thanking God already for all He has done that day, anticipating those wonderful reports, to His praise and glory!  Thank you Jesus for all Your love and care.  We are so grateful!

Wednesday, 14 January 2015


Our God is still alive, raising the dead, healing the sick, causing the lame to walk and the blind to see!

After experiencing another series of hardships throughout the month of December 2014, it does my heart good to hear this beautiful, testimony that we receive just a few days ago.  I have notice that every time we prepare for a crusade, it appears that all hell breaks loose in our lives.  Cars break down, family gets seriously sick and simple effortless things, involve monumental amounts of effort, time and repetition and sometimes still don’t work! 

It use to frustrate, exhaust and discourage me….it wasn't pretty!  The Holy Spirit began to challenge me, to keep a good attitude in the midst of it.  He was asking me to remain in His peace and joy, keeping a good, patient and positive attitude and also a resolute posture of faith.  An impossible task for me!  This could never be accomplished in my own strength and I relied completely on Christ as I turned to Him in prayer and worship, throughout.  Although, I can’t confess that I have done this perfectly, I have improved dramatically!

Countless times after doing that, we have seen God move in incredible ways during the crusade, not to mention how much better my heart feels with a lot less damage and casualties around me, who no longer have to endure my sharp stressful attitude or bemoaning complaints.  God is refining me, pruning those nasty branches and I am, like it or not….maturing!  LOL!

So after rising above all that was taking place in December, Silas and I rushed back from Nairobi as he was the guest speaker in a crusade in Obambo.  There was a gentleman there by the name of Gabriel, who heard Silas preaching and felt compelled to come. 

He brought his wife and severely disabled son.  His son, around 10 yrs old, could only crawl cumbersome on his hands and knees, paralyzed from the waist down, unable to walk.  He had been in this condition for a very long time.  The father asked Silas to pray for him.  Silas prayed but they didn't witness any immediate change, so the boy was carried home.

The father just recently shared, that he had formally practiced witch craft but had given his heart to Christ some time ago.  He said, he had never heard such preaching like that and felt the Spirit of God moving in that place and all over his body, during the crusade.  Once the family had returned home, they didn't witness an immediate change but the next day the father said to his son, as he left him with his grandmother, that he wanted to see him up and walking by the time he got home.

 He gave the boy a tire to lean on.  The child struggled to raise his body up with the support of the tire.  The son began to move about, cumbersome, lurching and dragging himself, but slightly moving forward, depending entirely on the tire to uphold him.  As he persisted, he started moving with more ease….previously pushing randomly with stiff, unmovable legs, now began to turn into a staggering, tottering motion of swaying baby steps, with little support, from the tire. Within moments, steps were becoming smoother, one after another.

The next thing you knew, he threw down the tire and began sprinting around the compound, continually!!!!  Such a remarkable miracle!  Praise God!! Jesus is indeed alive, raising the dead, healing the sick, causing the lame to walk and the blind to see! 

To Him belong all glory and praise, forever and ever, amen!